on Thursday, May 11, 2006
Some folks pray to the divine, hoping to strike lottery or earn big bucks. Some folks go to the temple to pray for the well being of their family members. Me? I prayed for hope and direction.
After a long absence, i finally went to the temple for a pre-Vesak day prayer session. Maybe i have screwed up my life so badly that i need some sort of " divine intervention"? lol Ok, i am an optimist but just for today, let me indulge a little on self.........idontknowwhatitisanymore.
So how do you define a screwed up life? Actually, my life isnt that bad. I have parents who try their hardest to provide for me and a brother who makes me laugh till the sides of my stomach hurts. I have good times with great friends. Basically, there is really nothing wrong with my life. I know. I am incredibly fortunate.
Why in the hell, despite all the above-mentioned, i still feel so "sad"? Like im moody, trapped andt all i could do is to resign to fate. Yes, coming from me. Resignation to fate isnt me at all.
Ok thats it. I need to detox. I need to get some perspective. I need to go look for a shoulder. I need a hug.
Boy, i am only human. Damn exams.
Oh, Happy Birthday Jo! Welcome to the clubbing phase of life.
Carina
11:14:00 PM
