on Sunday, October 22, 2006
It just seems like a page of out a novel or a scene of a movie.
I was sitting on a park bench, alone. My gaze held no expectations and without focus. It was just me for a while. I couldn’t recall where he came from or when he sat next to me. All that made sense to me was the warmth of his hands and the rhythm of his breathing. He didn’t say anything and he didn’t have to. I knew everything that I needed to know.
Then I woke up.
Sometimes it is just not meant to be. I will have to remember that.
Carina
9:15:00 PM
on Monday, October 16, 2006
The end of a weekend, again.
Last week was alright. This week might be better.
Carina
12:09:00 AM
on Sunday, October 15, 2006
Saturday Night's joint:
I didnt know what i was truly in for until the sight of the huge chocolate fondue greeted me near the entrance. 3 tiers of flowing chocolate. Charlie would have been a truly happy man.
You would think that with the amount of money we paid to eat there, food would be the top priority. Wrong.
Here, let me show you why.
That aside, food was good in terms of variety. I tried almost everything except Carbs because i think its such a waste of money to load up the carbs at buffets.
If my memories served me right, i ate :
Yabbies
Oysters
Mussels
Baked Mussels
Alaskan King Crab
Lobster
Crayfish
Tako, Salmon, Sword fish sashimi
Tuna Shooters
Smoked salmon and seafood shooters
Rojak
Papaya Salad
Thai Vemicelli Salad
Artichoke Salad
Pomelo Salad
Golden Spring rolls
Dim Sum
Grilled Seabass
Stir fried Asparagus with Prawns
Yorkshire pudding
Some cheese thing
Roast beef
Grilled Veges
Chicken Masala
Roti Prata
Ikan Pepes
Roast Chicken?
Blueberry Ice cream
Strawberry and cookie fondue
I lost count for desserts
...... and i didnt even try everything. I love the ambience and decor too. Not to mention hot waiters. Then again, Its The Shang. What could i not expect?
Me and the food buddy.
The best part of the evening?
" If we ever go to New York, we have to eat at one of those trendy restaurants."
" Its not a matter of if. Its a matter of when."
That makes a girl really happy.
Carina
3:02:00 PM
on Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Chinese Garden's Lantern Festival.
The entrance, albeit still expensive, was cheaper compared to last year.
The sight of Taj Mahal greeted us from a distance. I thought the displays will top last year's. So Wrong.
I want a palace too.
Cute pandas.
I wish i was at the real Effiel Tower.
Celestial Dragon display.
You would think that with the money we paid to get in, they could at least light up all the birds.
Pagoda
Couldnt remember the name of this temple. Was too busy getting my foot off the ground. Ah! Another story for another time.
In front of the Leaning Tower of Pisa.
Yes, its really leaning.
Flower Power.
Cute lil mushroom.
My infamous psychotic look.
Its Lantern festival indeed.
Maya Empire, right?
My favourite display!
Malt-Addict
More flowers.
Next year? I wanna play with fire.
Carina
11:28:00 PM
on Sunday, October 08, 2006
Torn- LETOYA LUCKETT
A part of me wants to leave you alone.
A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.(And I'm better off without you.)
A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why...
A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.
Torn in between the two.
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
(I really want to be with you) Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two.
(In between the two) Cuz I really wanna be with you.
(Be with you) But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
(You alone) Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I'm feeling so burnt out. (Cuz I can't understand you now.)
Now oh (I just can't understand you now.)
A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says "he ain't what you want."
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that.
So many times I... (I was ready to go)
So many times I... (Had my foot out the door)
So many times I... (I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
Cuz I keep fighting myself for you. (I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way)
(You got me so torn)
Carina
4:36:00 PM
Ok, i woke up feeling happy today. None of the i-dread-Monday vibes. The haze isnt so bad today. Checked my smses.
Mom: Please call me when you are awake.
So i called her. She was at work. It kinda ticked me off a lil because we were supposed to go for breakfast today. So she started with the whole thing about " how i should know that breakfast timing means i have to wake up at 7am etc". Time check: 9:46am.
"Fine, next time, pls specify. I really cannot read minds, mom," i replied.
I understand why you have to work so hard. I do. After 20 years of understanding, just cut me some slack. I am not needy. Its not too much to ask my own mom to spend 1 day with me when we dont eat together for 6 days a week, is it.
I hate listening to people's dreams and expectations for me. Why should i listen to what YOU WANT ME TO DO? Go lead your own life. Stop telling me what you wish i will do etc. I am not here to help you to carry on with your boring life.
Pictures soon. I just have to wait for the astronaut to send some over.
Carina
3:45:00 PM
on Thursday, October 05, 2006
Vicious cycle once again.
Here i am, trying to path my own way thru but yet i keep getting sucked back into the vaccum. I hate it. I hate to be conventional. There isnt much to think about. I know what i want. The reward at the end is just way too attractive for me to let go. Work hard? Work harder.
Thats me. Perhaps im not THAT jaded yet.
The Yoga classes have taught me to focus. Bring the awareness back to myself and concentrate. FOCUS. Be kind to myself.
You give me something -James Morrison
You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart
Carina
10:23:00 PM
