on Thursday, February 26, 2004
I HATE..............
1) People who has a wandering eye or cheats on their partner. Whats the point of commiting to a relationship if one party is not ready? You must have liked your partner for some reason so stick to him/her! Cheaters are a no-no! Just show that they treat others like a commodity and have no respect for individual's feelings!
2) People who are presumptious and assume everything. There is nothing to assume and making judgement before anything is just WRONG! Hates presumptious statements. They think they are right when they know shit about anything.
3) Guys who act or talk cute. Guys, it is one thing to talk cute to your partners but to others, it is not that warm and fuzzy. If i want to feel cute, i will go and invest in some cuddly soft toys. GROW UP! Time to get some BALLS!
4) People who are annoying! Take a hike! Get off my lawn!
5) People who ask silly and stupid questions! COME ON! USE YOUR FUCKIN' BRAINS!!!!!
6) LIARS!!!! I am not that smart but i am not dumb either. Dont try to cover lies with another lie. I know what you are talking about and if i dont expose you and ask you to tell me the truth, you should just cherish the chance and be honest. Dont tell lies, brush it off as nothing and thinks that i am too stupid to figure it out. I am not that dumb. And dont give me silly fuckin excuses. Thats just plain LAME!
7) People who tell me what to do. Handle your own life and keep off mine. Its none of your business what i do with mine.
8) People who expects me to report everything that happened in my life. I will tell when and to who i want to.
9) Lamers. Think they are IT when they are shit!
10) boring people!!!
11) it when people think they know you when they really know nuts.
Carina
9:49:00 PM
on Monday, February 16, 2004
Jann Arden- Insensitive (I am sorry if my blogs consist of lyrics but i think the words speak for themselves. )
How do you cool your lips
after a summer's kiss?
how do you rid the sweat
after the body bliss?
how do you turn your eyes
from the romantic glare
how do you block the sound
of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh, I really should have known...
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
(your) casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face
that told me
maybe you might have some advice to give
on how to be
insensitive
How do you numb your skin
after the warmest touch?
how do you slow your blood
after the body rush?
how do you free your soul
after you've found a friend?
how do you teach your heart
its a crime to fall in love again?
Oh, you probably wont remember me
its probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
who went ahead and fell for you
I am out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
some advice to give on how to be
insensitive
Oh, I really should have known...
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
(your) casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face
that told me
maybe you might have some advice to give
how to be
insensitive
Carina
11:11:00 PM
on Friday, February 13, 2004
Today, i am just going to start with a simple story. It is a true story. Anyhow...
I have a friend, D. (cant reveal his real identity of course) Known him for quite a while now. Well maybe a couple of months. One day, we were talking about his fiancee and he told me that she was the best thing that happened to him. And well my curious trait acted up and i asked him "Why?". Perhaps it was the cynical side of me. He started to tell me how perfect his fiancee was and how he felt frustrated when she was not around. "She calms me down," he said. I asked him how he knew she was right for him and he replied " She will be the one i go home to, i can see myself with her years from now,". Part of me questioned that. "How could love like this still exist in this world?" And then i realised that a person need a partner who shared the same sentimentsl. The one who wants to mutually be commited and work towards a wonderful relationship. Maybe in a weird cosmic manner or perhaps just pure luck, D found the one.
Or maybe some people will have that kind of relationship while others will never have it. "Legends" have us believed that when we meet the one, we will know. It might be a wink and a smile -Harry Connick Jr. It might just be a touch. But what if we never know? What if we will never have that kind of love? What if it is just a zero sum game that deceived us in the beginning?
Even if we are brave enough to knock on the door, will it ever open?
Wishing everyone a Happy Valentine's Day.
"Just a fool who believed, once."
Carina
11:46:00 PM
on Saturday, February 07, 2004
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
Carina
10:46:00 PM
I was reading someone's blog and it talked about "how to install love after a bad virus" literally. Anyways i figured that some kind soul who apparently was very good with computer terminology came up with that. It said, to get positive things into your life, you need to get rid the resentment and hate from the system. Unfortunately, that is also the most difficult thing to do. When two person are in a relationship and build up all the hopes and dreams....and it all crumbles down to nothing. How is that easy to mend? And how much time do we need to get over the failure?
Carina
12:03:00 AM
