on Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Thanks Caelis. Ozzy rocks. at least in this song.
Generals gathered in their masses
Just like witches at black masses
Evil minds that plot destruction
Sorcerers of death’s construction
In the fields the bodies burning
As the war machine keeps turning
Death and hatred to mankind
Poisoning their brainwashed minds, oh lord yeah!
Politicians hide themselves away
They only started the war
Why should they go out to fight?
They leave that role to the poor
Time will tell on their power minds
Making war just for fun
Treating people just like pawns in chess
Wait ’till their judgement day comes, yeah!
Now in darkness, world stops turning
As the war machine keeps burning
No more war pigs of the power
Hand of God has sturck the hourDay of judgement,
God is callingOn their knees,
the war pigs crawling
Begging mercy for their sins
Satan, laughing, spreads his wingsAll right now!
Carina
11:36:00 PM
Gosh, im deadbeat.
So to all those people who think that i am "very free", well newsflash for you: I AM NOT. Just because i dont tell everything dont mean that i am not doing anything. Tsk tsk tsk.
Supposed to meet up with a friend tonight for drinks but i was a no-show. Simply too tired to drag myself there.
All of us like to judge. Yes, including you. We judge who is prettier, cuter, smarter .. you get the drift. So if the conclusion after judging works in our favour, what does that make us? Better? Egocentric? I never get it. We like to compare so bloody much. Putting others down make us seem more superior? Yes, judging is a society's pastime, unfortunately. I dont intend to change the world. I just wanna understand it but right now, the world is so skewed.
Im done grumbling.
Carina
9:35:00 PM
on Monday, August 29, 2005
I feel extremely pampered today.
Surprise #1:
Got an unexpected gift today. I wondered what i did to deserve it. It feels like i actually have a boyfriend. Ha ha ha! Gosh, its such a nice gift. Thank you very much my dear.
Surprise #2:
I just came home from a two and a half hour $700 seafood extravanganza. Im so bloated now. Feeling very sorry for all the pregnant ladies. Thanks Florence and Karen. Had a great time as usual. :)
The kids in Salzburg tees. Arent they pretty.
Carina
11:52:00 PM
on Sunday, August 28, 2005
Wo hoo!!! I have paid for the tickets... everything is settled except collecting the air and reservation tix. Now, all is done except the train tickets. Need to book them. Headache, headache.
Jaslyn and Yang Hong are finally back from Austria! We went out for dinner and drinks. Saw the pictures. It will be my turn to go there sometime in the future. Hopefully before Venice sinks into the water. Had a lovely time catching up with them. Played with Reyna as well. Gosh i missed her so badly.
Welcome back guys! Thanks for the wonderful gift. :D
Btw... i spent 4 hours turning this....
*WHAT A HORRIBLE DISASTER!!!*
into this....
Not very neat but at least im trying.
I need to go shopping. My clothes suck. I will be a very well dressed widow. Ewwwww. Yes, im a fashion victim, if i even get the meaning of fashion. Oh geez. I still have another closet to clean up. This is what happens when u get a bigger closet space. You need things to fill it and unfortunately, my clothes.... EWWWW.* blames impulse purchases*
Carina
1:17:00 AM
on Friday, August 26, 2005
Been watching re-runs of the O.C and anything with Kate Hudson in it. * I think im coming out of the closet now.* Im so mesmerized with Peter Gallagher. Fine actor and so charming.. * trying to control my...*ahem* self collectively.* When he speaks, its feels soothing. Weird. Something i cant find locally but out of the telly. Go figure eh. Life is weird enough.
Now im getting impatient from waiting. Waiting for a ride. Waiting to go pay up for the trip * never been more excited to pay for anything before.. ha ha. I should start saving for my death party.*
Suddenly i am inspired to do something crazy. * gasp*
I have to go.
Carina
11:51:00 AM
on Tuesday, August 23, 2005
I hate PMS. Yeah I know.. who likes it right? Well some girls can use it as an excuse to be bitchy or something.. I don't know.. *shrugs* For me, I am really bitchy when im "suffering" from it. * Right guys, its not a funny matter.* Every month when it hits, I can feel my emotions, feelings or whatever viewpoints altering. Probably its my alter-ego, ha ha! I get upset easily over trivial crap, think excessively and of dumb stupid things that will prolly never happen until we figure out the answer to the egg or chicken first question. BUT, im feeling better. Happy. More like my old self again. I miss me.
Anyways, met up with the gang. I have not seen Songhui for months. He pulled a disappearing act. Poor thing couldnt join us for the trip. He is going to some remote part of Thailand at the same time. Same timing, same country but different purposes. He will be working while we will be holidaying. That look of disappointment was so apparent all night.Sorry buddy. Maybe i should take tons of pictures and rub it in. Ha ha ha.
Songhui and Ronald- Hui likes to do that pose an awful lot. :S The guy in the background looks like he was performing wayang or malay dance.
Pumpkin soup. Wasnt the best. 
Snapper fillet that Qi had. I was so focused on snapping what she was having, i totally forgot to do it for mine. :s
Ronald:" So Carina, the first 2 days will be just you and me huh? "
Me: " Yeah.. this is what i have planned... " * proceeded to ramble off the itinerary.*
Ronald: " So romantic.. just the 2 of us."
Me: " Right Ronald.. it would be so romantic. Just the 2 of us in a strange country. You know what they say.. people do strange things when they are in a foreign country.."
Ronald: " Whats that?"
Me: " Oh i will wear more layer of clothes than normal. Prolly 2 bras and grandma's panties."
Thank god, i know him well enough. Ha ha! Yes, we are really joking about it. Doh.
hmm so i guess i should book the trip tomorrow and pack extra clothes. He!
Toodles.
Carina
11:19:00 PM
on Wednesday, August 17, 2005
I dont usually believe in cosmic interferences.
However, just when we are planning for our BKK trip, SIA is selling tickets at such a low price! $128 for 2. We are ropping Ronald in now. I cant believe it. Its gonna be a hell of a trip!
Wo hoO!
Carina
10:31:00 PM
on Monday, August 15, 2005
You know your life is good when your mommie....
asks you to accompany her to the temple at 8am on a Sunday morning. The reason she uses is" I wanna spend sometime with you,". You know its not entirely true but still glad that she makes that gesture. She, knowing damn well she could go alone, asks you to share her day.
lets you pick the place for breakfast and drives you all the way there without complaints even when you forget to tell her which alley to turn into. Then, she asks you to order anything you want and will have whatever you are having.
thinks you are insane but stops her car when you tell her you wanna snap a picture of the reservoir. She proceeds to show a genuine interest in what you plan to do with the pictures.
drives you to a ulu shopping mall to get groceries because you dont wanna see a familiar face due to the unsightly state you are in.
and you have a conversation in the car like below:
You: " Its 7am...*yawns* more sleep.. i need more sleep. Why am i up so early? I hate you..im so sleepy..."
Mom:" Ha ha, but i love you."
Carina
9:16:00 PM
on Sunday, August 14, 2005
These pictures were taken a while back during the impromtu family bbq.
The gals and i went swimming. My grandma is a tough old lady. She tried showing me different tricks in the water and held her breath. Joanne, Gladys, Patsy and me were doing all sort of flying somersaults into the water or should i say " explosions". Mom tried to learn how to swim but to no valid. She did managed to kick around using the swimming board.
We went for a tennis game under the bloody hot sun after.
Patsy and Joanne
My bumble bee and strawberry shortcake
You cant really see anyone actually hitting the balls. We spent most of the time retrieving the tennis balls. * lol*
Reyna and Jaslyn came later.
The 1,2,5 pose. She learns young. Poor thing. :S
I love this picture. It reminds me of my younger days with my cousins. Poor Jamie, she is the youngest of the cousins. Guess Reyna could keep her company. I was thinking about Jamie alot recently. I cant really imagine not having her in my life now.
BBQ time!
More pictures of the lil two...
Filthy soles. Kids will be kids.
Im tired. *yawns* I had a great time hanging out with mom today.
Nite all'
Carina
10:46:00 PM
on Thursday, August 11, 2005
-My Zen Neeon is fine now. The battery went flat. It is back to normal now. * I hate relying on technology so much but i guess it is part and parcel of life now. -
I came home after a long shopping trip and a movie. * I am extremely broke now. I was planning on getting a new pair of jeans and dye my hair but that will have to wait. Not to mention i still have to save for the Thailand trip.* I got a lil surprise! Oh well, it wasnt really a surprise since i knew about it before hand. However, the effort in the gift was so evident. I felt extremely touched. Thank you, dear friend. I cant bear to open it. I will wait. Ha ha!
Went to Funan after and had that really salty plate of pasta. It was nice. I was reading my magazines * finally* and just enjoyed my time until this group of students came in and make a helluva noise. Oh well, i cant blame them since i WAS like that once. It reminded me of my secondary school days.
Dad informed me that Grandma is having some issues with her health. I am going to Mount E with her to find out whats going on. *Sigh- i hate going to hospital.*
So this is life.
Carina
11:33:00 PM
on Wednesday, August 10, 2005
I am very.................................
ANGRY* Trillion bold !!!!!!!
KNNCBB!!!!!!!!!!
NB!!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!
You might think that i am angry over nothing when you find out the real reason behind the fury. I just wanna go on a childish rampage.
But i am just angry!!!
My
NEW Zen Neeon hanged on me! The screen isnt moving. It is not even flickering. Everything freezes up except for that cool cyan light. * Stupid Neeon.. so many color lights also no use. * I bin chao chao at the player, yo the player also no use leh!!!!!
The worse thing - i was looking thru Creative's website customer support... It sucks!!! * Aiyoh* The telephone support is only from 11am to 7pm. No information on walk in repairs. No opening hours. I wanna go down to fix my player leh! Like that how? Aiyo. Very bad. Tsk Tsk.
Oh oh, i forgot. This is the worst lah. I was listening to Wang Lee Hom's Ai De Jiu Shi Ni. I like that song. Happily listening to it. Song ended, i wanted to repeat but it jumped to Z Chen's Mo Ri Zhi Lian! How coincident can this be? Fuck lah. I know. JJ's fault lah. I dont like him mah. No wonder my player so fuck up lah!!!!! Kanna stuck while playing his song. KNNCBB!!!!!!!!
TMD, tomorrow have to go down to Creative office. Waste my money! Wah lau eh.
I so patriotic. I bought Neeon over Ipod. Support Singapore company mah. See lah... Kanna fuck back in the end.
* Ok i was furious when i wrote this and above mentioned was the whole frustration acting. I am fine now. Lah. *
Carina
10:11:00 PM
on Tuesday, August 09, 2005
I have officially turned into this creature that is so frickin insecure and confused. I hate myself now. What the hell happened to me.. ARGH. This is really annoying.
Ok im going to start rebooting.
Anyways, anyone can help me with Jap Anime? Call me please? Thanks a bunch.
Carina
11:59:00 PM
on Monday, August 08, 2005
Feeling a lil depressed. I get waves of different emotions at different hours.
I was having dessert with one of my cousin at a cafe and she asked, " Why are you so nice to me?". I was a lil taken aback with the question. Being nice has never been an option. Cousins are a fanatastic bonus. In fact, they shouldnt even be extended family. They are like my brothers and sisters. It is so awesome that i have quite a large amount of them- although things could get really hectic sometimes.
I remember all those family trips . We would rent a whole tour bus to ourselves and everyone wil go. The elders sat in front while the kids were at the back, making a hell lot of noises. Everyone would raid each other's room at night or compared who ended up with a smellier room. It was also on trips like this that we would dare each other. " Eat that whole piece of chilli," or " Go on the roller coaster,". We bonded, took lotsa crazy pictures and had an enormous amount of fun.
Recalling the places we had been to-
Thailand
Some island off Msia
Cameron Highlands
Penang
Genting Highlands
Some island off indonesia
Langkawi
Malacca
Now that everyone is older and busy with our own lives, im glad we went on those trips before. At least, i have fond memories to remember everyone by.
* Something is wrong. I cant fix it.*
Carina
11:32:00 PM
on Sunday, August 07, 2005
Finally, the old baby has bite the dust.
2 nights ago, it turned off by itself and i tried reformating for one whole day to no valid. After the one time that i did suceed, the hard disk decided to be vocal with " Voom Voom Voom!". I cant really blame it. Prolly overworked by me for the last couple of years.
After a lot of thinking and an essay on why mom should loan me the dough to get a new laptop * Yes i wrote a 2 page essay trying to convince her and yes, i am going to pay her back contrary to whatever your beliefs might be. Ha ha!* She caved and we went lap top hunting today! She was so good at negotiating.
The new baby should last me 4-5 years without major issue, i hope.
Anyways a lil update on my weekend. Watched Wedding Crashers and Charlie and the Chocolate factory- which prompted me to buy a chocolate goodie bag for lil Patsy. * Of course, her mom frowned upon my gesture. Ha ha!* Its like Halloween. I get to do trick and treat to kids for no reason. I love Halloween. Kids dressing up, asking for candy. I used to love having anything pumpkin after that but that habit has changed of course. Wedding Crashers is a great movie. Damn hilarious. I always love Owen Wilson. And besides, i am beginning to like Rachel McAdams. She could be the next big thing. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. hmm.. I dont know but Johnny Depp seems to enjoy playing characters thats like... hmmmm i mean.. Its so Edward Scissorshand. But its a good Roald Dahl movie. I should catch the original Gene Wilder movie so i wil know the difference i guess.
I cant wait for the national day parade. Hope everyone had a great weekend!
P/S Hey gals, lets go to New Asia bar soon aye?
Carina
11:49:00 PM
on Thursday, August 04, 2005
I have been cleaning my room for about 5 hours. It is still not totally done yet. But well, the rest will have to wait.
Usually, when i clean the clutter and mess, i will feel better. Its like im removing the junk out of my life. But today isnt the case. I feel panicky and troubled. Like a ton of waves washing over me.
I need someone to snap me out of this black hole.
Why cant i have better self control?
Carina
12:07:00 AM
