I am leaving the country tomorrow...so this is my parting post...LOL
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Thanks peeps!
Be here when i get back! Take care!
Carina
8:44:00 PM
on Saturday, May 22, 2004
Have you ever thought of what type of person you want to me? It seems that everytime when we go thru a " life changing experience", we wish to be better in certain ways or at least have minimal changes? I am a soon to be OLD 21 and when i think of the " many life changing, death defying" (Now i am just spinning) experiences that i have gone thru, i wonder, do we really learn from our mistakes? Or really, as part of our " life long campaign" to be a "better person", can we really change and not commit the mistakes again?? Hence the DeJa Vu. Oh i have been here before. This is a weird logic but i think that mistakes are not so easy to cover up. Simply because we have committed it once before and the consequences of that error have been apparent. Are we really just our own actors? Do we pretend to know better when we dont really have a clue in the universe? Till now, i dont know what my purpose of going thru failures, mistakes etc. Is that really our antibiotic towards this big virus termed as LIFE? Do we really have to feel bad about ourselves now to feel good in the future? I wonder.
Carina
10:54:00 PM
It seems that time not longer makes a difference. It always seem that we need more time when it comes to cramming for exams and relaxing but Time is always slipping through the cracks.
Does it really makes a difference? People could know each other for a day and get married. We could all die in the matter of seconds, regardless that it takes many years to build a life up. I could know someone for years and yet couldnt trust that person. Someone could know me for years and yet, still doesnt have a clue who i am at all.
Does the length of time really signifies how much trust we have?
Carina
10:02:00 PM
Dear Whoever,
I feel so sad today. Feeling the urge to run and scream my head off. I feel all the pressure mounting in me. I feel, i feel, i feel. Anything but happiness. When i look out the window at night. it normally calms me down and gives me a sense of peace. But not tonight. Tonight there is no other emotion except sadness and disappointment. Nothing helps. Watching tv? No. Eating peanut butter? No. So lost. I am without a direction. Nothing in sight and mind. What to do? I feel like crying. Im going to bed. Forget everything. Leave me alone.
Carina
10:45:00 PM
on Thursday, May 06, 2004
I am so behind on my studying that i am going to fail every single subject.
I remembered a "friend" telling me that i should never wear sleeveless shirts because of my big fat arms. I wonder, since when it is acceptable for my friends to dress me up? (Friends being a very subjective word here) Okay so i have big fat arms. Apparently it is a big deal and big arms since i am taking the time amid my very busy schedule (busy being another subjective word) to write this. So i have big fat arms, big ass, whatver. Are friends supposed to scruntinised my body now? Sorry i am not perfect and i am not some twig girls (Not insulting anyone here) skinny or slim or whatever. The funny part was the "friends" actually told me that if i am fat, no guys would date me. Hello!! Its time to move on! We are not in kindergarten anymore! I find it incredibly silly that people let media lay out the reality thinking that it is real whatever that is shown on TV. So supermodels are all over the tv and what? I am not stereotyping but most of the guy friends i have want their girlfriends to be really tiny. Its like " Oh she is tiny i am going to ask for her number!" ????? But then again this is from my side of the world. So tiny is "in" now.
The "Friends" will also give me the "poor sad lonely without someone special" glare at times. So now if i dont have someone special, i must be a loser. Relationships are a bonus not a prize. Stop bragging it!
I love myself ( though i do have to change certain things abt myself that even i find it revolting). I love the way i look. I love my life.
If a guy doesnt want to date me because i am fat, so be it.
P/S Gotta run...will reply to all these tag board msgs later!!
Carina
12:02:00 AM
*My Brother's ( Small Willie) blog is now officially open for business. Please feel obliged to spam his tag.*
I am a procrastinator!!!!!(What gave me that idea?) I love myself. I hate myself. I love myself. I hate myself. Phew.
Carina
11:42:00 PM
