My knees went weak. The generosity and sincerity shown to me were just overwhelming to the point of terrifying. I had to sit down and pinch myself to make sure its real, that i wasnt dreaming.
Oh my.
Carina 11:16:00 PM
Note the stringent security. LOL Suddenly my prom fades in comparison.
Carina 4:45:00 PM
Singapore is very small indeed. Of all people, i saw him. At the most unexpected place to be seen too.
There is nothing left to say. I have used up all my words with him.
My affirmation? I do learn from mistakes. Thank god.
Carina 12:53:00 AM
on Wednesday, June 28, 2006
I feel more like myself once the exam period is over. Even a friend noticed the difference between the pre and post exam me.
Today was pretty hectic for me.
The compensation was dinner at the Quayside. It was fantastic. The food was rather pricy. ( It was the usual seafood grub) Well, we all know that when we go to places like that, we are paying for the ambience and locales rather than quality of the food. ( To be fair, the fried rice with king prawns and crabmeat is damn tasty!) New drink joints are everywhere! ( When are we going, my alcoholic friends??!)
Having dinner next to the river with amazing company.... i think i can get used to it. Ha ha!
The following 2 weeks will prolly be a frenzy. Thats when a vacation comes in handy. I cant wait.
Carina 11:28:00 PM
on Sunday, June 25, 2006
I love watching World Cup with dad.
Its been a great week.
No complaints.
Carina 11:58:00 PM
on Friday, June 23, 2006
I finally took down the music. Much to the happiness of SOME people who dont know how to appreciate French rap. ( Ill Fait Chaud by Passi just in case you are interested to know.)The truth is i find it to be quite annoying as well.* Streaming music, not the song.*
My attention span for anything is so short. I was in the midst of doing laundry, got bored of it and decided to sit my arse down infront of my computer. So now, my clothes are floating around in the pail while im happily listening to some Brazillian tunes ( I assume you will frown upon that as well?? LOL). The only thing thats missing is a nice cocktail next to me.
This week is going by quick. Some things done, lots more unaccomplished. Whats new aye?
Oh, i went for a Tarot card reading earlier this week. I was amazed at the accuracy of such things. Im not sure if i am a believer though. R was debating the reliability of such crafts. I think its like reading your own horoscope. The choice to believe is up to you. $25 bucks for 15 mins... ah, pricey. Maybe the reader was psycho-analyzing me in the short span of time? I've got no clue. Not fretting either.
Bye.
Carina 3:31:00 PM
Carina 1:14:00 AM
on Wednesday, June 21, 2006
We meet different people from all walks of life.
Crap.
If everyone is born as a carbon copy of one another, there wouldnt be a need to account for the differences. All of us like oranges ( i love it), listen to French rap and think that lilies are the prettiest flowers on Earth. Life wouldnt be so complicated now, or would it?
Right, if nothing is without a catch. Nowadays, you cant even walk thru a shopping mall without tons of insurance predators tricking you into listening to their sales pitch with Twisties as bait. If everyone likes oranges, there will be less for me. Hence, thank Lord for apple-lovers(?).
I have met the dictator. I dont think i have met anyone more presumptuous ( "I am smart. I analyze things. I know what you are thinking"-Erm ok?), petty, overbearing, egoistic and " self proclaimed" righteous, * The word " tyrannical" comes to mind but think nice things, nice things! Rainbows! Doves!* The dictator has accused me of not wanting to talk. I think anyone who has met me knows i am gabby.
Ok, maybe in this isolated situation, the accusation might be right. I have not been forthcoming. I cannot tolerate talking to someone who does not value alternative opinions, who is so staunch in his position and beliefs to the point of being obstinate? How to talk when i am being stifled of voice? The only time he heard me was when i was mumbling something in agreement to what he said.
I am a strong believer in freedom of speech. I would not expect anyone to have the same thoughts nor would i expect anyone to agree with whatever i say ( and vice versa). Like what i read somewhere, " Even the best government in the world needs an opposition voice to keep it in check,".
I think this dude is his own enemy.
But hey, you dont have to agree with me. It is a free world after all.
The last time i travelled somewhere besides Malaysia. omg.
If i had a focus, it wont be so bad. When it was April-May, i had exam fever. Now, i have absolutely nothing to do! ( except for the really mundane details that could really bore me and possibly you to zzzz.) Even my friends noted the excessive number of sighs followed with, " I am so bored!!!" declarations. Yeah, i know, get a job. Yup I am working on that. Slowly but surely. Utimately, i didnt agree to go for the interview. I should get the experience of interviews yadda yadda yadda but under that certain situation ( friend involved), nadda.
Travel, i hear the calling. Good lord, i check the classifieds and budget airlines' websites to find the best airfares.. every frickin day. There are so much to see and experience outside the bubble. The world is alive outside Singapore. I cant wait. My feet is light! lol P thinks that my love for travelling is the result from my tendency to run from things that ground me. Rightttttt dude. lol Maybe.
I am going to clean my room, for fun.
Watching the wheels- John and Yoko
People say I'm crazy, doing what I'm doing Well, they give me all kinds of warning to save me from ruin When I say that I'm okay Well, they look at me kind of strange Surely you're not happy now You no longer play the game
People say I'm lazy, dreaming my life away Well, they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me When I tell them that I'm doing fine Watching shadows on the wall Don't you miss the big time, boy You're no longer on the ball
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round I really love to watch them roll No longer riding on the merry go round I just had to let it go
Ah, people asking questions, lost in confusion Well, I tell them there's no problem, only solutions Well, they shake their heads and look at me As if I lost my mind I tell them there's no hurry I'm just sitting here doing time
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round I really love to watch them roll No longer riding on the merry go round I just had to let it go I just had to let it go I just had to let it go
P/S R told me that JetStar Asia will have a promo in July. How accurate it is, i have no clue. Dont say i never tell you hor.
Carina 8:09:00 PM
on Monday, June 12, 2006
Liberation! Liberation! Liberation!
Carina 9:21:00 PM
on Tuesday, June 06, 2006
The fear strikes close. I am scared of losing control. Part of being in control of my life is knowing that the people i hold close to my heart are safe and well.
Grandpa has not been feeling well. I am scared out of my wits. This isnt a moment when i can snuggle up to someone and wait for the storm to pass. I dread the sense of helplessness. I understand the pain he is going thru but i cant feel for him. He must be terrified.
Pray. I will pray.
Carina 11:37:00 PM
on Sunday, June 04, 2006
I am beginning to truly appreciate the perplexities of a journey. Sometimes, i am just a passenger. Other times, i am the driver, picking people up and dropping them off, going towards my destination.It is never a straight path, thats what i appreciate the most. Perhaps, taking a detour isnt so bad afterall.
I have also been thinking alot about family and how much i enjoy spending time together with them. Sitting in front of the box watching tv with dad and Will or just hanging out with my mom. The recent happenings just taught me how precious they are. The notion of moving out to get my own space is always in my head. The thoughts of travelling and getting a job abroad seem so tempting but i am not sure if i am able to be on my own, living a life away from the people i love. As much as i will be getting new experiences but i am uncertain if the trade-offs will be worth it.
MBB and i had a great day together. Even though, i took a tumble and bruised my knee, it didnt ruined my day. I felt the warmth in sincerity. Someone is looking out for me. In the daylight, i could get a clearer picture and it wasnt disappointing.
