on Sunday, January 04, 2004
As we welcome the brand new start to every year,the most common question being asked besides "What are your new year resolutions?" is " Where are you going on New Year's Eve ?".
What really amused me is that the questions are just like a DHL package-Right on time. Somehow, the questions have slowly crept into our "yearly" system. When New years are approaching, something inside our mind just go "Tick tock! Time to ask those questions again!".
Why do people asked those questions? Is it a comparison to see who has bagged the fun or is it a competiton to top each other's scale of PARTYING? Or maybe as culture will have it, We, Singaporeans are just too damn CURIOUS!
A couple of days before NYE, some people asked me the same amused questions. When posed with the questions, my brain just automatically tried to ramble up some answers that would not make me look like i had no plans. However, the truth was, i had no plans. I had no idea what to do on the "BIG" eve.
Do we really celebrate for worthy celebrations or do we celebrate so we wouldnt be lonely and count as a "Loser with no plans"? Does "no plans" makes you a loser? At this point in time, i could probably fool you with, " Oh my friends are out of town or they are spending it with their boyfriends". The truth was i had no plans. I had no idea where to go or what to do. Maybe in " social context", it made me a pathetic soul in some eyes. And i was so worried about being sticked with the stigma that i felt sad that i was going to be alone at home when the clock struck 12 midnight on the day of Eve.
In the end, i did stayed at home. i spent the night and early morning chatting with my friends who are overseas, online. I was touched by the fact that many of them were with me when we crossed into the new year. Some stayed online with me just so they could wished me "Happy New year!", MY TIMEZONE. I had never thought that the friends i met thru online gaming a couple of years back, would still be with me.
It is amazing how these friends live so far away from here but i could always feel the warmth in my heart.
I guess i wasnt alone on New Year's Eve after all.
Carina
12:56:00 AM
