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    on Friday, December 02, 2005


    I am supposed to be prepping for Thumper now but somehow i am just not in the partying mood tonight. Getting intoxicated, yes but dancing and inhaling of smoke? No. Im so sorry folks. I shouldnt bail like that but i just dont wanna be a party pooper. Chrystal, if you read this before heading to India, im really sorry for being a no-show. Hope you will have a safe trip and a hell of a fun time there. Get the hotties!!! :)

    Its amazing how fast my mood changes. I could be feeling like im a million bucks to being stuck in the pit of a hell hole in 1 second. I am troubled, i guess. My life seems so perfect from the outside but truth be told, i feel like a spectator looking in from the outside sometimes. Its moment like these that i like to go clubbing so i can get wasted and just sleep it off. Not having to think about anything. Yes, escapism. Hey, everyone is an escapist in their own ways. I merely just choose alcohol as my poison. But not tonight.

    Tonight, nothing will help. I could be stuck in a room with hundreds of people and still feel extremely alone. I could drink my life away and it wont help a single bit.

    You really dont get it, do you? You have no idea. Either way, i am in a no win situation.

    And i have just turned into one of those girls that i hate.

    Well, i figure, everyone needs some yellow-card moments in their lives. You commit a foul, get benched and play again at the next match.

    Consider this my yellow card moment.



    Carina
    9:23:00 PM