on Thursday, November 06, 2003
I had a real shitty day today. In a world that is exploding because it is over-populated, i feel so alone. I know i keep saying this but its how i feel. I cant remember the day when my cheerful and optimistic self died but i do remember that no one went to the funeral. I died lonely. After that day, its just the other side of me with the devil. I sit here thinking, "What happened to me" but i cant find the answer. Maybe it was one of my computers, Baby, that finally broke down and ended our relationship. I thought it was a great relationship. Me, him, The Sims, gaming all the way till wee hours. I miss the games on the computer.
But i still dont know whats wrong with me. I do know that i feel completely worthless. Its so strange that people who tell you otherwise are the ones who treat you like crap. They dont understand. And i thought technology is a great thing. But what happened to phone calls and mails in the letter box? I have friends who dont call me but send me msgs. They know i called them but replied with a msg. We have to chat thru sms now. What happened to calling? What happened to the simple thing of calling and asking, "Hey how are you?" Are we losing touch with the real stuff or am i losing it?
Carina
9:56:00 PM
